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Regression

I am not amused at how
Silly and immature.
Silly and immature.
Silly and immature.
Silly and immature.
Silly and immature.
Silly and immature.
Silly and immature.
Silly and immature.
Silly and immature.
Silly and immature.
Silly and immature.
Silly and immature.
Silly and immature.
Silly and immature.
Silly and immature.
Silly and immature.
Silly and immature.
Silly and immature.
Silly and immature.
Silly and immature.
                                     I am.

condensation

Oh, mother.

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Dear mother,

it's been a long time and I miss you,
there are parts of me you never knew,
but what's the point in this cruel world
if we don't trust each other and be free?

I speak out my mind,
tonight I am crazy,
tomorrow I will be nothing.
I've been on drugs,
I've been on alcohol and I couldn't find the answer to the whys
but I know a place where I can comfort and find the truth,
in the island of your embrace.

Dear mother,

the sweet things we were talking about,
I'm gone now in the dark sides of myself,
I need your island to my life,
I need a shore to anchor my weary life.

Dear mother,

I can't tell you my secret,
not that I am afraid but I'm keeping you safe,
I'm keeping you safe in my heart shapped locket,
I let you to remember the child I was.
I love you but I've been mad for a long time,
I sink the islands and I have nothing but yours.

MOONLIGHT

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Under  the red moon
I will lay with you babe.

The white sheets I have
I wish I could fill them with love.

Under the red moon
I am asking you to believe the lie.

I can't see no way,
I can't see no other way to love,
all the paths are leading to the one I have.

I can't see no way,
I can't see no other way to love,
all the paths are leaing to the one I lost.

Under the red moon,
I will wash my sins away.
Under the red moon,
I will drink a whole bottle.

In my crystalised world,
full of monsters and gods
I will lay seeing them reflecting
the beauty of red moon's light.

I can't see no way,
I can't see no other way.
All the paths are leading to me and you but I leave.

Under the red moon
I see the real me
I have created.

Swinging under the moonlight,
wearing a red tie.
A chaotic life is what I asked
the last time I met you.

In the valleys of sadness
I got lost.
I guess I never felt being a child,
but your love is the same when I look in the red moon tonight.

Oh, baby, I am in love with the stars.

Last Chapter. New One now.

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I crave for a perfect life and when I finally have it
I destroy it.
I am this kind of perfectionist that kills his own self and it kills me.

I cry a lot in the night,
I smile when I try to sleep.
i scream because I can't find peace inside me,
I break into the dark sides of me,
looking for the boy that was trying to be happy with who he was.

Why?
Why people change?
I don't feel like this and I am hiding inside me.
I don't feel right by saying goodbye.

A last kiss,
a last embrace,
a last song to be played
a last look in the eyes,
a last touch,
a last time with you,
a last goodbye
and then, ouch, I have lost myself again.

Over and over trying again to bring the pieces together,
I've been there and done that many times
but this time I am so tired to stand in my own two feet.
I am small.